mental-health
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BEYOND MYSELF
A funny thing about “high-masking” ADHD/autistic guy is that I can be in the middle of a full-blown meltdown and still look fly. I can be all dressed up, cracking jokes, sharing memes and getting things done all while being a full blown crisis. Pre diagnosis, I had no idea what was happening during typical… Continue reading
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AN OUTSIDER’S DIARY
Life as a black AuDHD man. Some days I wonder what it feels like to belong. Not simply to exist in a place, but to arrive somewhere and never once question whether I deserve to be there. I have spent so much of my life trying to find that feeling that I sometimes wonder whether… Continue reading
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Visibility is no longer vanity but a responsibility.
Quiet, Polite, Measured, Humble. That was the version of me that was most likable. The version that believed that having an opinion was dangerous, and expressing it was arrogance. I thought strength should always be hidden because anything visible risked becoming pride, where I come from, people mistake timidity for humility and silence for virtue.… Continue reading
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I AM A FAILURE
I often tell people that I am a failure in life, but I’ve never quite found the right words to explain what I truly mean. Hopefully, this will. My productivity falls far off the scale of my abilities. To be clear, I do not have unrealistic expectations of myself and I do not put undue… Continue reading
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As a kid, I drank from this very stream. The water smelled strongly cow piss. In fact, during dry seasons, we had to dig through the sand to reach water level deep down. Brown water, filled with debris and things no human should survive on. Yet we drank it anyways. I often say that I… Continue reading
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“Know Thyself”
If I open my wardrobe and realise, I don’t have a brand new plain white or black t-shirt sitting there, unused, untouched, just existing, I can have a full-blown panic attack. There’s something about plain t-shirts that I cannot explain, it’s almost spiritual. The feeling when I wear a brand new fitted t-shirt is unmatched.… Continue reading
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THE COST OF SELF AWARENESS
I live by very simple principles. Those closest to me me know one of these to be how I won’t stop talking about this ‘unwritten social contract’. To me, we all have an obligation in every human relationship. Not contractual one, but I genuinely believe that if our paths cross, even for a moment, we… Continue reading
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Finding the courage to stand in my truth, even when others don’t see the struggle behind it.
I have felt isolated for the best part of 2 years now even in the midst of family and friends. Many of you have this notion that, since l was able to cope fine with undiagnosed neurodivergence for the first 33 years of my life, why am 1 suddenly making a big fuss about it… Continue reading
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The Cost of Forcing Neurodivergent Minds into Linear Systems
Preparing for yet another long term sickness meeting and I am just here imagining how my life spiralled down so fast. I hope for the best, but preparing my mind for the worst. I have had the unfortunate pleasure of attending a couple since August last year and I kid you not, these meetings are… Continue reading
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NO, I AM NOT A NERD
Around this time last year, I booked my car in for servicing online a week ahead of the due date. On Friday morning of the day I was to take the car, I received a call from the mechanic. He said he wanted a bit more detail. First, he asked what time specifically I wanted… Continue reading
DIVERGENT CORNER 